It has been a while since I have been on this page to write and I’m thinking that it is time that I get back to it. A lot has happened since I last wrote…I bought a house, I got married and I moved to Wisconsin. A few weeks back I decided to resign from […]
Do you ever just sit or lay somewhere and think about how alone you feel? Even if you are surrounded by loved ones and family and friends and amazing co-workers and a huge support network? The feeling sucks beyond words. It is uncontrollable and it strikes without notice. I can be laughing and enjoying something […]
It has been 7 months since I have been on here to write and so much has changed since then. I ended my 10 year relationship, I came out (last one to relaize I was gay), I moved out, I bought a house, I started dating, and I fell in love with an amazing woman […]
So shit is hitting the fan again. I have only slept 3-5 hours in the last 2 days. You would think I would be more tired then I am but I have weird energy. Of course I want to clean and organize and tidy everything up because that is how I cope when I am […]
So I started watching a show with the premise that a seemly happy and wealthy and all around great guy decided to kill himself. The man seemed to have it all; great job, great family, great friends, great house, great looks and a great personality. And with all of that he jumped from the patio […]
I haven’t written in a while because I honestly didn’t know what to write. I’m on week 2 of the new job and I love it and I love being back in the program I spent 7 years working in. I come home from work every day and go on my run. I actually had […]
Today I completed my first 5K (3.1 miles) in 33 minutes and 11 seconds. I also finished 3rd for my age group. I honestly am very proud of myself and happy with my results. I set out to at least finish in the top 3 in my age bracket but my overall goal was to […]
I wish I could get my brain to slow the heck down. My husband an daughter are at an off-road racing extravaganza for the entire week and I am home alone and I can’t get my brain to slow down. I get off, come home, go for my run, eat dinner and then all I […]
Sometimes I feel like anxiety should deserve a little more respect. I struggle two ways with my anxiety-I either cannot sit down and am constantly have to clean and organize or I cannot handle large crowds and can feel a massive amount of weight/pressure on my chest. Sometimes I can clean the shit out of […]
What do eyes say about a person? I was getting ready for bed and was about to wash my face and I looked into the mirror and stared at myself for a few moments and really focused on my eyes. They look so sad to me, they were glossy, pink, and just blah. I’ve never […]
A Touch of Madness 