It has been 7 months since I have been on here to write and so much has changed since then. I ended my 10 year relationship, I came out (last one to relaize I was gay), I moved out, I bought a house, I started dating, and I fell in love with an amazing woman […]
So shit is hitting the fan again. I have only slept 3-5 hours in the last 2 days. You would think I would be more tired then I am but I have weird energy. Of course I want to clean and organize and tidy everything up because that is how I cope when I am […]
So I started watching a show with the premise that a seemly happy and wealthy and all around great guy decided to kill himself. The man seemed to have it all; great job, great family, great friends, great house, great looks and a great personality. And with all of that he jumped from the patio […]
I haven’t written in a while because I honestly didn’t know what to write. I’m on week 2 of the new job and I love it and I love being back in the program I spent 7 years working in. I come home from work every day and go on my run. I actually had […]
What do eyes say about a person? I was getting ready for bed and was about to wash my face and I looked into the mirror and stared at myself for a few moments and really focused on my eyes. They look so sad to me, they were glossy, pink, and just blah. I’ve never […]
Since I started running Monday I have been feeling great. I come home everyday, slip into my running clothes and head on out. I go as far as I can and then a little more each day. I actually look forward to going home because I know I get to run and have my me […]
So my brother from another mother Kevin recommended that I try running as a way to burn off energy in order to help me sleep at nights but also to help release endorphins. I was currently in that struggling state where nothing mattered and I felt like my meds weren’t working. I’d been struggling for […]
Today started out rushed as I forgot to set my alarm last night and we had a soccer game at 9:15 in the morning. Once we got on the road I grabbed Starbucks and picked some tunes to pep my daughter up. As we were driving I realized that my mind was not racing like […]
Tonight I told my husband that I would rather not be living on this earth anymore. But I choose to stay and live because I love my girls, I love my husband, I love our families and our friends. But I am done being broken, done feeling empty, done being ashamed, done being weak, done […]
That word pretty much sums up how I am currently feeling. I woke up late because I set the wrong alarm clock. I slept like shit last night and didn’t go to bed till late. I woke up and felt hungover from my night medication. My mind was racing all morning, on my way to […]
A Touch of Madness 