I haven’t written in a while because I honestly didn’t know what to write. I’m on week 2 of the new job and I love it and I love being back in the program I spent 7 years working in. I come home from work every day and go on my run. I actually had […]
Today I completed my first 5K (3.1 miles) in 33 minutes and 11 seconds. I also finished 3rd for my age group. I honestly am very proud of myself and happy with my results. I set out to at least finish in the top 3 in my age bracket but my overall goal was to […]
Tonight I told my husband that I would rather not be living on this earth anymore. But I choose to stay and live because I love my girls, I love my husband, I love our families and our friends. But I am done being broken, done feeling empty, done being ashamed, done being weak, done […]
I have been having a rough week and a half. My mind is constantly racing with thoughts, some good and some bad. I haven’t been getting enough sleep-I either don’t fall asleep till late or when I do sleep I toss and turn both leaving me exhausted when I wake up. I feel like I […]
The holidays came and they brought with them happiness. I was excited to watch our girls open their gifts and I was excited to see our family and friends. I took some additional time off of work to spend time with the girls and hang out and play with all the new stuff and purge […]
Interacting with people is something I took baby steps into because in all honesty…it scared the shit out of me. Now that everyone knows what I have been through and how close I was to ending it all, I kind of felt like everyone was looking at me and felt sorry for me. I also […]
Those next few days were all new territory for me. After reading my last post you would think everything was honky dory and I lived happily ever after. I was thankful for the new start but now I had to figure everything out all over again. I had to be vocal about my feelings with […]
That night I slept the best I have ever slept in god knows how long. I awoke and felt relief, less stress, less tension and with the knowledge I have been given a second chance. I learned through this whole “ordeal” that I need to be more honest with myself, my husband, my family and […]
I agreed to go to the hospital because I knew there was nothing else for me. I think subconsciously there was still a little part of me that wanted to be saved. We called Loma Linda to see if they had any beds available and sadly they were full. I didn’t want to go to […]
A Touch of Madness 